If I could tell you anything right now
I would say
I’m sorry
For wanting you more than wanting your well being
For not listening with the right ears
I would say I’m sorry you’re hurting
I’m sorry your heart hurts
I’m sorry
For everything
For being selfish
I would look you in the eyes with my tears
and say how sorry I am
to have disrespected your process

I would listen
I would thank you
for giving to me
at a time when you have nothing to give
I would acknowledge that
that you did something at a time when you have nothing
because you are that good
that great

I’m sorry
that’s all I could say
If I broke anything
If I didn’t listen
I’m just sorry
that’s all the words I would keep repeating
I’m so sorry.