one day she realized she had healed
she was no longer heart broken
not because someone else fixed it
the memory of him had faded
his arms spooned arounds her had faded
she now fell asleep to the greatness of her days
the feeling of their sweet spots merging was gone
replaced by the sweetness of her life
always there
she no longer yearned to see his face
to listen to him share interesting things that make her feel alive and empowered
to come alive under his gaze as he watched her taste all that she loved
her heart opened again, not just under his prying claim
but naturally because she loved life
she had wanted to love him
but his cage kept her out
she had wanted to forgive,to be forgiven but he kept love at bay
all faded now
she carried the hem of her skirt in her hands like a lady
her hair flowing
happy again
knowing her love is indestructible
that she could not make love for him
that she would no longer make love to him
but she had behaved like a lady and could be proud of treating him like a man
the first time she ran her fingers along his arm
driving back from the airport
the memory still lingered but she knew that was shakti
moving through her
and she carried that feeling with her
knowing its value
will be valued.
indestructible love, that would take her everywhere
SuzyQ