Not wanting to say your name or share it
knowing you are my very own Felipe
I’ll say only that and whisper your name in my heart
and casually in conversation as if you were an eternal part of life
and still are
you are what I know now a man is
not everything to me
oh I know you call it timing -and maybe so it was
for both of us
and we both ware running fast, wanting to escape and destroy our pasts
my past that keeps coming back, again and again
and yours that tried to kill you
but strong you are
i could sit and watch you for hours
under the shiny starts
you always let me choose
watching you care for both of us
embracing you embracing me
I feel so sad sometimes
but mostly I don’t cry because it’s voer
I smile because it happened
you, to me,
me, ever so amazed
you knew what to do and say
you know how to hold me
pulling me in, lifting me up, spinning me around
I had never been so thrilled
but mostly I loved flowing back into you
I loved knowing you were happy with me by your side
still,
still,
still,
it’s a story with no ending
now I have a mold to work with
things to fill and things to leave behind
places left untouched
and crevices opened up
ready to gush out, like they did in your arms
gushing affection to and from
in magical exchanges
where much was said with so few words
My very own Felipe.